Inconsistent Blogging

Perhaps this is the wrong title for a post like this. I would be the first to admit that the title is possibly the best descriptor for this blog, but this post is more about the reasons behind the infrequent nature of my posts.

First, I feel it necessary to explain why it is that I publish a blog. There are several reasons:

• I enjoy writing. The process. The revisions. The finished product.
• I believe that I have something worth contributing to a public discourse on matters of worship and theology.
• I like the sense of freedom of expression that self-publishing arena of blogging offers.
• More and more I get excited by the prospect of being able to interact with an idea that is published.
• The almost instant feedback that can help in promoting dialogue.
• The control that is present in blogging is very addictive. I determine the subject matter.
• Finally, a sense of notoriety. (Although I've been quoted more through traditional print media, than through this or any other blog.)

I now need to explain why it is that I don't publish that often:

• I'm fearful of the impersonal nature of the internet. Now before you go off on this point please hear me out. Reading a blog requires no investment of the reader apart from the time that it takes for them to read the words. There is no purchasing of the material that is read. Free often equals cheep and worthless. The internet while it draws people onto an equal platform, it also creates an environment where there is little respect for the thought and learning of the individual. Someone with absolutely no understanding or background in a subject can comment on material. (I keep on reminding my children that sometimes learning means to shut the mouth and observe.)
• I sense a need for the material that is posted to be thoughtful and beneficial to more than just me. There are times that I need to hear my own voice (see my own words), but when I publish something I actually need to believe that it is something worth someone spending their time reading. I'm also not a prolific re-poster of material. Perhaps that is because I tend to be the type of person that follows other people's writings as opposed to attracting a lot of followers.
• I have a lot of pursuits and writing often takes backstage. Only when I'm forced to study and write does the bug come back and do I take another look at writing. As you can likely tell, I'm on holidays and therefore finding the time to do some writing.
• I'm fairly young and don't believe that I have the maturity to really provide something substantial (see point 2). Someday there will be more. (perhaps)
• I take my writing very seriously and personal and quite honestly am afraid of criticism. This is not written to discourage anyone from criticizing my work (that was point 1). It is an honest admission that I too am human and take my writing seriously.
• I'm afraid of making a blog a self-promoting, humanistic piece of drivel.
• Finally, I'm essentially lazy when it comes to writing. I love it - much like I love cooking, reading and study, but it requires work.

So after all of that I guess what I'm saying is that I will likely be posting more in the coming months as a result of the studies that I'm doing. I trust that the work that I post is meaningful and will somehow edify, encourage and perhaps disturb some.